I play video games. Love ’em. Probably a bit to much. One of my favorites are the games that let you world build. There are a few that operate in real time with/against other players. These worlds are their worlds. Windows into what they think, see and how they act/react. Take notes. Observe. This is a great way to character develop/world build. Some players are so beautiful and artistic it’s like walking into a gallery. Others are so linear, you have to go wtf? Where is the art and imagination?! Some people are messy and creative or just messy. It takes all types. Add those types to your righting. Nothing is black and white. Ok, almost nothing is that black and white.
Writing is a catharsis. Just put a sentence down, then another. It doesn’t have to make sense, yet. Write what you feel. Write what you need to say. Write till you’ve said all you can. Write until there is nothing left for you to say.